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I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.


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the year is abt to be over soon.. hmmm maybe i shud review the yr like many many do..

Sch
back in Jan i was still unsure whether i'll be retained in J1 or i can cont on wif J2.. if i was to blame anyone or anything for the shit situation it had to be myself and the tv. yep watch too much soccer for my own good.. really glad when i learnt that i cud cont on wif J2. so for a short while i was ultra super happy until reality hit me and i became emo again..

the prep for As was unusual. away from TV. away from home. long days in sch. emo. but on the other side.. i was playing Wii going shopping.. all so weird..

sch's over. almost officially.. not that i wanna think abt it. i just simply wanna run away from it lah.. but seriously i'm afraid of hving to repeat year2. there was once i actually tot maybe i shud hv jus retained in j1 and REN MING. but actually i oso dunno wad course i wud wanna pursue if i was to be lucky enough to go U.. maybe i'll start worrying abt it next year.. it's oni a few days away mah.. and to those 3 that i promised to treat if i go U: "I'll rmb de!"

class
i dunno wad to say. dunno where to start. had some great memories of them.. like being lame.. taking photos.. playing at settlers.. trying to be big fat muggers.. being evil.. being nice.. etc..

i suppose some of them will miss the class a lot. i dunno abt myself. i nv had that kind of feeling to any class. regardless whether it was my p6 class or my sec4 class. it was like i was so close wif huiqi but in came 2003 and we almost totally lost contact.. i'm nearly 100% to be blamed bah.. JIE MEI DANG too.. hai.. maybe i'm just not vr good in maintain friendships.. maybe i dunno how to treasure the people and things arnd me... but i hope i'll learn someday somehow..

now that i'm here typing.. i 'm listening to radio.. listening to the song realise.. haha how appropriate..
If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, but
It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

(ps. things are going to be un-understand-able =p)
realisation
just now i was watching tv & the content reminded me of sth.. sth which some other thing had reminded me of.. it's sth which i'm better off w/o & i dun wish for it.. but i think i shud be ok for it to happen for me to feel this way

although it didn't last long, brought me tears and turned my world upside down inside out it's sth which i can't and won't forget.. it still makes me feel all ... ... my heart beats differently.. the grey covers the pink.. not that the pink is too little it's just that the grey hit me too hard. how i wish i think of the pink more than the grey. if u wan me to sum up my feelings regarding it, it'll b tough.. i was angry but no longer. i was sad and i still am a little every now and then. happy i was. i missed him quite a lot suddenly for some time.. seriously if EVER one day he comes into my life somehow i think i'll lose control.. typically soolin charis might be thinking if she reads this. no one will be able to replace his position. is this a positive or negative position? dunno.. it's just diff and oni for that 1 person. and so QIAO the radio is playing secondhand serenade's fall for u
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another dayI swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

that actually made me fear.. i keep telling mum that i wud rather TONG JU than get married to save on divorce fees hahahahahahahaha..

HUI TOU CAO is not for me becos of fear too. if it happened it might happen again right? of course there's another side of things. but fear is tooooo huge to overcome.. so lets hope someone comes by to change things. or sth that changes my perspective.. confidence is sth that i most def lack..

this has been a rather weird week.. i'm doing housework.. okay actually to be exact i've been home alone.. sis's away at our cousin's and both parents are enjoying a cold christmas in shanghai.

not the most exciting or happy week.. working is not very pleasant really. what they say is true. the real world is *ouch*.. people are just so ... ...

today came over for christmas party. had big big pig leg (i think) nice honey chicken. choco. marshmallow. ham. sausages. wonder what we'll play ltr.. 4 girls and 2 mums plus 1 dad ... ...

the champion league draw is out!!! omg.. i laughed and screamed and yelled and fainted while watching the draw.. the following is a screenshot from soccernet well. when they drew chelsea with juventus I couldn't help screaming!! both are huge clubs. but juventus's history is more er... DENSE.. currently both of them are in 2nd place of their league.. hard choice but i think i'll choose JUV

Liverpool has got Real Madrid.. sounds weird but true.. the 2 clubs with the most champion league titles.. Real is struggling currently.. Liverpool is currently sitting at the top.. but no guarantee that Liverpool will win cos they can be weird weird at times..

Barca has got Lyon.. the reps from both the clubs can't help but smile smile when the camera turned to them.. both for diff reasons.. one is *bang head* one is *muahaha* who can stop Barca now? they are hot hot hot

Man U got Inter.. Muahahahaha. Jose Mourinho vs Ferguson again.. the2 loggerheads cannot run away from each other.. Inter's top of their table now Man U's at 3rd.. my mei feels that it's gonna be a tense one.. lots of cards.. i think it might b one with many goals instead.. but somehow we both agree that penalties is likely..

these are the main 4 matches i'll b watching becos it's what interests me more.. and of course becos gerrard will be playing for liverpool so how can i miss that one =p

these few weeks have been boring... ok maybe except last week.. but this is typically how i look like at home.. (see below) typical me.. sitting in front of the tv. even if it's football it also doesn't seem to appeal. AFF is really not my cup of tea... every few minutes someone will roll on the floor.. or they will be so physical.. premier league weekend was not entertaining instead it was kinda funny.. all the big 4 drew.. wow.. everyone works so well tgt to ensure liverpool stay on top.. although i support gerrard i still dun like the way liverpool is staying on top of the table.. it looks kinda fake.. esp when u keep hearing abt bookies match fixing and wadever else that's negative..

ytd went to eat ma la huo guo with kaisim.. finally met her after so so long.. we ate for abt 2 hrs and by the time we come out from the place we smell like the hotpot!! so er xin! walked arnd bugis street to disgest the food.. really felt bloated.. and to my wallet's horror i spent $$ again!! omg.. now i hv 7 piece of new clothings. hell...
i've a hole in my face!

huili trying to act cute while we were waiting for xinyi to be done with trying on her clothes.. =p

if u take a closer look.. there's a part of my face (near my eyebrow) which has sunken in.. omg! what happened to my face!!!
PIC


i think they purposely asked the rest of the ppl to go away so that they can take this shot... awww.. gerrard so cool =p
nice chair!
*grumbles*

i dunno why but i feel vr disturbed that some unknown ppl left some weird and uncomfortable comments at my friendsters acct.. what has the cyberworld become??!!

i swear not to drink coffee anymore.. at least for the last few days of this yr.. i'm feeling so sick now that i wanna vomit..
D&D

i'm gonna post what many others will post..

the photos are at http://www.flickr.com/photos/soolin/show/with/3081201137/

went to peiling's place but she wasn't back yet so i spent some time with her cat... thank god she nv attk me.. but she stared at me then nimbled my fingers.. i dun really know how to describe it cos she only did that for a while.

cindy's msg: on ur way ? 1830
no.. still waiting for peiling

shing's call: where are you 1845
errr....

cindy's call : where are you 1845
errr

basically we were half an hour ltr than what we planned =x but nevertheless we were still not the latest..

everyone looked WOW... i must say i feel a little underdressed... but actually if u observe hard enough there are some others who are.. erm.. more underdressed than me ... *phew*

sat at some sucky corner where we can't see the stage.. boo.. the food wasn't fantastic.. william was like saying.. "every dish is $10... even this nua nua mango pudding"

after that we went to St James.. had a few sips.. tried to shake for awhile then left le.. eh.. how to say ah.. we are OVER dressed.. *faints* so not vr comfy or suitable to move arnd la..

sat arnd and waited for 6.. actually wanted to have breakfast but.. TOO tired liao la... so forget it.. played zhong ji mi ma in the mean time.. the loser will hv to answer a truth question.. and as unlucky as usual it's me me me.. but lucky for me.. there's nth much u can ask other than a bit of my past.. not worth commending.. but basically it's just a crazy hell time.. and erm.. it kinda make me realise that i seem to be like being anti social and weird all cos of that guy.. somehow it's affected but it.. some bit at least.. after so so long. i'm still s-i-n-g-l-e.. not that i'm despo.. it just make it seem like i have a phobia for it.. i myself can't confirm it.. maybe.. maybe not..
the day before tomorrow

well today's the 2nd.. just a day b4 the "big day" =p yea.. D&D.. the one thing that made me so poor so fast.. i'm just glad that my dress and shoes weren't that expensive if not x_x

not too sure whether i'll look ok tmr.. but it can't be too bad... i hope.. wonder what a noobie like me can produce =/

i just hope that tmr...
contacts can go in the right side
makeup wun look horrible
will not be a bad hair day.. although everyday seems like a bad hair day
i won't look too informal
and i really hope it doesn't rain

hv been watching too much late night soccer matches.. not vr satisfying though... not as nice as what i tot it might be.. nvm.. at least steven gerrard is not injured and i get to see him play.. sis ask me to change blog skin cos she's sick of looking at gerrard.. oh wells.. see if i can find one nice blogskin then decide bah..

to khaiting.. my sis found this!