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I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.


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TO ENGG JOOO ZHII: i'm updating take note. haha. i too busy to update la!!

boo. so tired. but can't fall asleep. dunno y. mus be the choco. hv been eating choco like no one's business for 3 cont days. my milk choco bar 6 rows gone liao xD supposingly choco is to make u more energetic forget pain feel happy. but.. errm. dun seem to be working VR well. o well.. jus bear wif it & start mugging lor.

promos starting on 1st oct. children's day =( y we can't celebrate? then y we hv to do ACES? isn't it meant for children?? -.-

saturday was the charity concert. ok i noe wad everyone's gonna say. i play the harmoc until vr夸张. =( no one told me b4 so i din noe it was sooooo.. ok i'll try to make the movement no so 夸张. abt the part where my face turn red. i dun hv mirror. so i oso din noe. x( so 丢脸 la the entire ting

but sth gd abt saturday. we were crazy-ily eating. taking pics in the reading rm. bought a cake for 老师. the one that everyone say his face/mouth will shake or sth.. haha. he's a cute long-winded ah pek. the cake is quite nice ^^

as a result of the concert. i missed liverpool-sunderland game=( & CSS finals. i recorded the liverpool game but didn't record long enuff. i din get to see the 2nd goal =( boo. this wkend's game all nth interesting la.. sian.. then the man u match. almost watch until heart attk again. but the nani scored la. at least make me feel better. imagine la. last season's champ being the 2nd btm this time round. wad is this??!! but now no more liao la. now is tott'ham cham again. last wk managed to save themselves this wk fall again. the man u game hor. me and my dad siao siao. go and buy scoreline 5-3 -.- buy oni $10. if win will win $1750!!! haha we totally siao la. the end result oni 1-0 =p

oh ya. saturday after the concert went wif them to cck to makan. wah piang eh. 豆花is realli not suitable for me to eat. eat 1/2 a bowl oni i look horrible liao le. it's oni a rice bowl lor. after that ordered french fries which didn't come. even if it'll come soon i also can't eat la. it's 2315 le. i hv to rush rush rush. if not i'll hv to walk hm. still gt train la. 77 last bus is at 2300. 106 last bus is at 2330. 2315 i'm still at cck. i mus hv been a little outta my mind. so run to mrt station. run up the stairs and chiong into the train. walk super fast to the bus interchange. went to check the tv screen. time now: 2329! bus comes in 1 min!!! heng ah!!

anyway. jus now watch tv. saw this cute cute car called ginetta


ferrari car chio bah.. i tink i'm too affected by f1 le. sports car now look super nice! jus dun lemme hear them can le. haha

the above car's close up



man u actualli lost to man city!!
*starts swearing* man u is last season's champs, how can they start off so horribly? drawing 2 matches and now losing one. total number of goals is 1 from 3 matches. rooney is injured cannot play for abt 2 mths. ronaldo is red-carded & is serving his 3 match suspension, 2 more matches to go. if i 'm a man u fan. i tink i wud hv had a heart attack

the game b/w arsenal & blackburn draw. had 10 yellow cards & 1 red card. x( how come so hiong??!! then william garros (if i nv spell wrongly)current captain is injured & might nt be able to play for 4 mths. that lehman ah. wah piang. conceeded another goal due to some 白痴mistake.

liverpool vs chelsea. draw. 9 yellow cards. supposingly michael essien was rewarded 2 yellow card. but y is he not asked to leave?? *starts swearing again* gerrard, john terry and lampard weren't spared. erm. if i nv rmb wrongly, gerrard & john terry will miss his next match. omg i can't imagine a liverpool w/o gerrard and a chelsea w/o JT. ok chelsea w/o JT still nt too bad. cos JT oni came back b4 tat lampard was temp capt. but liverpool.. oh no.. next there's this penalty that was awarded for no apparent reason. cos of this kuku penalty, chelsea managed to draw. if not liverpool wud hv won. torres scored liverpool's 1st hm goal this season. it was oso his 1st BPL goal. his 1st anfield goal. if liverpool won. it wud hv been perfect! but nooooo... but the evil will be punished. the "ka you" referee has been suspened for this wkend's games and he will nt be able to referee major clashes anymore. all these if i nv rmb wrongly. 活该


wheeeeeeeee finally get to touch the comp not cos i hv to do work ^^ haha.. 1 whole wk didn't get to blog le.. so here's the recap.. dun complain it's long. it's already a S-U-M-M-A-R-Y

Saturday 11.8.07
my pw group came to do WR from 2-8. we realli did our WR. sense of accomplishment. but of course we did other stuff in between la =x. we played cards, watched u-tube, listen to music. the ting to mention the most is. we eat eat eat. we finished many packets of sweets, one can of pringles and almost 10 pckt of drinks. heng i was prepared. hahaha. we also ordered canadian pizza. we ate 1 extra large pizza. 1 medium pizza. 5 chicky wings. 1 chicky salad. 1 garlic bread. some fish and wedges.

during the week
it was a bad wk.. quite a bad week.. cos there's so much to do in so little time. fed up fed up fed up.

MONDAY: my parents finally came back from HK. so happy. it's so tiring when mum's not hm. so many tings to do. My mum bought me quite a lot of stuff. one big bag. one singlet. one blouse. 3 pairs of sock =x 1 pair of adidas shoe dun bear to wear yet cos the old one vr 不舍得 to throw away. one pair of golden shoe. one metal watch also不舍得not to wear the current and wear the new one .

hehe will be getting my jeans soon. hope this time the colour will be correct. if not like waste $$

oh ya. i altered my skirt tighter. haha every1 wud alter it shorter but i'm altering TIGHTER. heng my shirt long enuff if not my tummy will be seen =p

THURSDAY had to do math test. boo. tink i'm gonna fail le=(

TODAY morning at mrt station there was this gurl standing among the flight of stairs at the mrt station. i dunno y of all place she stand there la. but it's such a weird place to stand to wait for the train. cos u practically can't see the train.
there was tis other man. dunno what's wif him. he has a headphone to his ear. he keep swearing and walking arnd. eee. i dun wan to get near him.
there's this other guy. he was looking at the tv screen. then there was this triumph bra advertisement. he was staring at it la. so concentrated. then once the ad finish he look away. omg. why are men so eeeeee
today we saw a MR SINGAPORE. he is 超级超级超级帅!omg! such a rare sight in AJ. muahaha. cindy is so excited abt it la. she sweat as a result la. haha. we purposely walk to nexus. to see him. haha. cos we keep seeing his back we walked in the opp direction. then cindy siao siao run here run there. haha. we intended to go see him after the civics but boo. they already not there le =( nvm still got next week. haha
on the way hm one small gurl gurl sit next to me. then she was sleeping. so she was like leaning on me (X_X) to be exact, my shoulders. but she alighted b4 i alight if not i can't imagine her falling off. haha
at bb mrt near the traffic light. i saw this lady. omg. her clevage is like a valley. so deep! then her red lacy bra also can be seen x(
at the bus interchange there was this gurl. wearing heels of abt 3 inches. and one pair of super short shorts. heng her leg not too bad looking if not it'll be ewwww. my main pt here is. somehow her top didn't cover her butt and her butt was exposed for public viewing. imagine the line in b/w the butt. u noe wad i mean
if i was a guy i wud be like. "wah so heng 1st see the top now see the btm" but no i dun enjoy seeing it at all! ladies pls cover up la. it's not realli vr nice

heard from my dad that beckham has finally scored in MLS. it was a free kick. well bend it like beckham. haha. maybe becks' free kick is too "high class" for the players. well the US and English players are of diff class

the following is abt EPL dun read if u dun like it

Barclay's English Premier League season 07/08
has finally started after a long wait! the ball has changed colour.. now it's blue & white
Sunderland VS Tottenham
1:0
sunderland is managed by roy keane a prev Man U player. the goal was scored at the vr vr last minute. the player (chopra) became the star for that day. Tot' was supposed to be better than Sun' but....
Sunderland is a team to take note of!
Bolton VS Newcastle
1 : 3
The current coach of Newcastle was previously the coach of Bolton. Newcastle had many new players & seem quite promosing. scored 3 goals within 30 minutes. then when martin scored the 3rd New' goal, he did a somersault then a back flip.

Aston Villa VS Liverpool
1 : 2
tat day liverpool wore their new away jersey which looked like england's home jersey. Ok this one is going to be long. cos got my GERRARD! it was a rather disappointing start. LP keep losing possession. argh! 受不了.
Fernando torres the 帅哥 made his EPL debut. he didn't score but nvm.. he is nice person to watch.
at the 30th minute some AV guy dunno got confused or wad, he sent a goal into his own net! a LP guy accidently touch the ball in the penalty box. handball! penalty! the whole LP like shocked tio like dat. all become so sad. after the ball went in, LP players realli looked super sad. AV players were so happy. so it's GERRARD to the rescue! wheeee ^^ gerrard got a free kick when someone blocked his way. he kicked a super nice free kick. it curled into the top-most-right corner of the net. wah classic sia! muack!
so for the 1st time since 2002, LP managed to win their 1st match of the season. staying up from 12-2am was worth it =)

Arsenal VS Fulham
2 : 1
this game was full of action. arsenal keep trying to score. but failed almost everytime. they oni managed to score at the 90th min. b4 that there was a penalty.

Chelsea VS B'ham
3 : 2
I was watching this match simultaneously wif the arsenal game. so i missed the 1st 2 goals. but during that time i saw 2 goals on the arsenal side (within 7 mins). after that i missed another 2 goals on this side. forgot why. so in short this entire game. i oni saw 1 goal. the 3rd chelsea goal.

Man U VS Reading
0 : 0
it was a sad and boring game. Man u had possession of the game totally. but they somehow didn't score. i oni managed to watch the 1st half cos i was too tired. heng i nv watch. if not i will confirm feel like going to 撞墙. anyway rooney got injured in the 1st half
during the week there was also EPL. man U once again draw. ronaldo got a red card =( why like tat. chelsea won again. tottenham lost again. liverpool won the 1st leg of their 3rd QF 1st leg. but GERRARD injured his foot =( i wonder if he can play during this wkend's clash wif chelsea.


hehe. today is thursday alrdy.. that means BPL(barclay's premier league, changed name liao) will start in 2 more dayS!!! Liverpool's first game will be on sunday 0015. that means i hv to stay awake until 2am at least juz to watch gerrard play. bleah.. but nvm at least after stressing myself up wif pw i can enjoy life and watch soccer!! haha. pray hard no one touches the SCV remote control. haha. actualli i tink it'll be quite hard.

today morning i had a dream. a girl and a guy. both are quite strong headed. likes each other. are shy. girl doesn't remember the guy's number but has it stored in her phone. she picks up the courage to msg the guy. guy replies. then they cont msg-ing each other. after tat de i can't rmb le. from morning til now too many hours diff le =x it's so weird. why wud i dream of this? esp when i said "that" but wadever the case. today i woke up on the RIGHT side of the bed. feeling happy ^^

today morning went for breakfast at cafe cartel. quite ex. well actualli a little more exp than mac cheaper than ajisen. i ordered pancake. the pancake was vr small & thin. heng mum & yL ordered too much for themselves. or i wud not be full.

after that went to walk arnd. & in popular i saw this notebook wif a vr special cover. or at least to me the words mean differently. stared at the notebook. had a sudden urge to buy it. but i didn't. i told myself i cudn't & shudn't

wad's going on. why did these happen? does it mean anyting?

anyway there were many pics i didn't load ytd cos i was too lazy to go and find my phone. haha.


emo-ing arnd



patriotic shoe lace on swiss hall floor

wen see do ji yan


wensee's smelly feet

cindy do ji yan. (i took it too slowly)

hui li trying to do it. opps. she's gonna kill me
ruzi do ji yan
khai's turn
finally me!

we were being totally lame. haha. at ajisen. 斗鸡眼-ing hahaha

anyway. i cut my round round fringe again x( not purplosely de. dunno how come turn out like that. all the hairstylist like to cut tat kinda fringe for me



today is 8.8.07 eve of national day. wore sch U to sch haha. our class is OUTSTANDING la. everyone else is either in PE, house tee or class tee. we also had a red shoe lace and a white shoe lace. we are so patriotic. after that we had a lousy AJ race. EVIL teachers enjoyed their meal holding our class score sheet. boo..... station master left the station @ 9.30am. when we are supposed to report back to sch at oni 10am. tat station was oni 5 minutes away from school. what kinda shit is this?

had a 15 mins concert. the choir can realli sing i mus say. 2 thumbs up! =)

after the concert, waited for joozhi.. then kat.. then meihui.. total 20 mins..

reached swiss and they were playing the sch song. that signified the end of the speech day x( tat was oni abt 12 lor. so tat means the event oni abt 1 hr plus plus not like wad joozhi tink.. 3 hr plus ._. so we didn't see anyting.

took pic for many ppl/ of many ppl. yea.. the following is the link. go and see see horh. all the pics are uploaded. i hv vr few pics oni. so dun ask where is this where is that. if u dun see it here. then it shud b wif khai..
http://s125.photobucket.com/albums/p50/yapsoolin/speech%20day%202007/

after that went to bubble tea shop. didn't want to drink. so went to 7-11. the shopkeeper tot we were stealing stuff -.-'"

after that went to lot1. ate ajisen while some others went for jaychou's movie. b4 tat i was being a photographer. haha. we were at like a corner and it looked rather weird la =x after their movie we went to take neos. i'm so confused dunno where did my $$ go. but nvm. as long as not too much missing jiu can liao. *cross fingers*


looking at the math tutorial i hv to do. i feel totally disgusted. i dun like the way math is taught now. i dun like hving lectures.everyone is assume to be of the same ability. i dun like having tutorials. i dun like the idea of spilting into grp. the teacher expects us to listen when every grp present. dot. we dun even get the chance to discuss. the visualiser. do u think everyone's handwriting is readable on the visualiser? i dun like the idea of the not so good ppl having to go for SPECIAL lessons. it's like a form of filtering. making the not so good feel inferior.

now is integration. i'm still STUCK at lesson1. she's already somewhere into lesson 2. ending soon. shit. shit. shit. next chpt the lecture haven't even finished la. pui! chiong so fast for wad! i dun do u nag. i do slower than others u also gt comment. argh! now if i dun make this darn chpt clear, i will die for the rest of this bloody yr. differentiation dunno how to do is already bad enuff. integration is somehow linked i also dunno howda do. the rest? no nid to ask. surely can't make it.


也许真的是时候放弃我守护了四年的信念。放弃我对他的期望。放弃这一切的一切。虽然曾经有快乐的时光,但是那已经是好多年前的事了。当然不快乐的也不少。痛苦的。。。被提了。也有过机会让这一切改变,但是最终我还是选择了放弃。结果继续痛苦下去。真是自找苦吃。最后一次是在今年年头。回想起来心好酸。今天是给自己的希望最后一个机会。但是已经不像以前了,缘分已尽,就到此为止吧!
“不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有。”这句话我对自己说了一次又一次。但是老是听不进去。
“过去就让他过去”也许这句话比较适合吧。
希望我能找到让我开心的原因。让我不再伤心的原因。我不想再为你伤心掉泪生气快乐。四年就够了。
守候了这么久,难免会舍不得。算了。
叶淑玲。这次说了这一些话,不能再像以前,反悔,不能再回到原点。陈洺逸。原来我已经忘了怎么写你的名了。原来你已经渐渐地从我脑海里消失了。那也好。

如果可以的话,就让我大哭一场,让心情好一点。

to ris: sry it's all in chinese. i'm jus going to let him go. dun wan to tink of him anymore. 4 yrs is enuff. it's time i start a new chpt of life.


hehe. i'm still awake. time now is 0045. it may seem early for some but too me it's late liao lor.. i hv been sleeping at 11plus. i can't tahan staying awake. i see hw i wanna sleep liao..

i dun like math tutorial. seriously. last time go SO slow. now go so fast. ppl in class. pls spare a tot for slow ppl like me. esp when i dun like differentiation & integration =( i nid to pass my math by EOY. die die also mus pass

hmm. lets see. wad is there to blog abt..

thursday
we took our class photo. w/o pd tutor. dunno why. but wadever. haha. we took it at the track. the so called formal shot was taken on some log steps tingy. it's 100% not formal. how to be formal on the LOGS??!! i had some difficulty cos i nv wear shorts mah. scared 走光. so sit on the side. but no one infront to cover my legs. eee. n i dunno if the posture of my legs wil turn out nice or not. eee. i dun wan to see my big fat thighs. i dun wan anyone to see it. eee. imagine looking at a photo and u notice big fat thighs.ah !!! after tat we took a jumpshot as our informal. b4 finalising that shot as the informal shot we took many others. haha. lucky popo noe the photog ppl if not we wun get to take so many shots =D the jumpshot was fun. haha shud do it more often. now i noe why ppl like to take that kinda shot so much.

friday
today had civics elective. hmm. wad shud i say. it's boring in some sense. as in. talks are boring. or at least tings that feels/looks/sounds like talks are boring. lectures included. but the content wasn't tooooooo bad la. the speaker's pt was everyday save a little u accumulate and earn compound interest or wadever u will hv a lot by the time u retire. so it's like everyone can b a millionare. i tink i spelt wrongly. nvm

talking abt spelling reminds me of GP. boo i dun like GP. we do the intro para then guru reject. had to go hm to do. but since thurs til now still nv do. too lazy and busy. haha sounds nice eh.. another ting abt gp. hv to do so many newspaper article analysis. boo. not nice to do one. but why m i so hardworking-ly doing it. i oso dunno why.

oh ya. today we oso had the council/cca leaders stepping down ceremony. dumb dumb one. squeeze everyone on top. feels vr scary on top lor. i walk tat time like anyting also will drop down lor. then when i stand it's like i'm moving forward backward. eeeee. anyway. joel looks much much better when he wear the long sleeve white top instead of our boring grey uni. he looks more 帅 and "mature". the sch shud seriously consider changing to white top. ok tat will make our uni almost the same as AC or SA -.- the BBall J2 cap is like wow! so tall. from my view, he looks gd. "why all the good looking guys are J2s?" (idea quoted from cindy). anyway. back to joel. when he stood up ah. i was thinking. "wah. will he kik that ball off the stage?" =p but he didn't la. if he did then so 丢脸

was chatting online juZ now. n i tink i made someone decide to go offline or at least nt tok to me.. haha. charis u noe hu i'm refering to bahh. *wink wink*

currently watching ah poot! was happy for a sec. cos i tot will hv gerrard. but no. oni hv torres crouch hyypia. i oni noe 3 of the 11 ah poot players. and i hv no idea hu are their opponent. all i noe is they're a shanghai squad