I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.
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it's almost the end of may already =x means i hv to get started and mug. no choice. i hv to at least pass a few sub this mid yr. if not i tink the sch will come running after my blood. sometimes i jus dun understand why i still fail when i seem to put in so much effort. real sad sia. unlike some ppl who seem to b natural in born ability. *drools* ok so i shall mug. what shud i start first leh??
sometimes it is realli sad it seems like no one cares. i dunno why i keep getting this feeling this yr. maybe it's cos i'm plain lonely in AJ. it's jus that i dun seem to hv someone whom i can tok to wif. everyone's jus pre-occupied wif their own stuff. i suppose i'm too. so maybe this is jus part of life. the older u get. the more independent u must become. sad happy angry wadever. it's all gonna be bottled up in u. or at least majority.
epl ended. i shall not watch the next season until my exams are over. i mean the As.
champion league is over. hai. i already stopped watching it like since i forgot when.
f1 season is still ongoing. i think it might b hard for me to control =x so sad raik has be over taken by ham in the drivers' championship =( raik mus jia you!! i dun care if raik is fat, i'll jus take it as his bones are heavy haha.
tennis i already lost touch so yea.. no worries that i'll b spending too much time on this
nba. seems interesting but i nv seem to be able to catch the game live so also no worries of being addicted.
euro. i ask dad not to subscribe so also no worry
all seems fine =D i can mug the whole june away =D but ohoh i seem to b stuck wif maple again =x
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i dunno what do i want to do with myself... a moment i'm trying hard to study and be a mugger. next moment i'm telling myself "aiya pass jiu hao le since i'm oni going to poly after the A".. then there's the worse one "fail jiu fail lor since i also nv pass b4. so wadever" and the "mid year if i still fail everything i might as well jus quit sch"
can't be helped la... failiing GP essays like no one's business.. failing GP compres as though that's the way it should be ...failiing geog although that NICE lady gives tong qin fen... failing chem test... i dunno what is wrong.. it's not as though i nv put in any effort.. nth seems to go right... how can i not lose hope? some VOICEs keeps telling me confirm wun make it de... hai...
for the sake of not wasting more $$ and money. maybe i shud try to force myself to believe in myself..
soolin! you can do it de! work hard!! maybe i shud jus cry to get all the -ve feelings out but.. when i wanna cry nth comes out! argh~~~ actually not all is bad. sometimes i will smile becos i truly am happy. maybe if i view other tings +ve things might change. i dun wan to be an emo-kia. no!
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the deflator
teachers sometimes inflate ur marks to give u confidence.. as long as the marks aren't inflated b too much i'm fine with it.. i noe it is not good to inflate marks but sometimes that 1 mark might be all that is needed to boost ur confidence..
if a teacher marks strictly marks will confirm fall but in the long run it might help if u dun give up on urself
giving negative comments does not work. reverse psychology doesn't work always. shit u
irony
why wud someone do sth nice but after that say that what he/she has done actually will harm us? aren't u trying to appear like a kind soul here? why the sudden change?
the disgusting
2 couples. both hugging. mrt cabin. opposite. competition??
mugger
to be or not to be? weigh the pros and cons?? for the sake of the exams.. i perhaps shud try but given my style of absorbing info.. i think many pieces of paper will be used cos i'm anything but someone who can learn by reading reading reading
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ytd was sports day.. haha sounds so childish right?? it's called track and field meet la. jus tot calling it sports day wud b more 亲切..
slacked arnd.. didn't bother to sit wif the rest of the people.. sat near the stairs of block 4..
 with PO  the 4 of us who were slacking arnd. i noe i look weird but that's how i look like whenever i'm the one holding the phone  me wif the thingy they gave  33/07~ some of us  tug of war which the teachers won AGAIN  random photo. staff race after tat went to makan. i was so blur i forgot to pay. and the food is such a waste of my $$ =( then went to amk hub to look for dear shing's present. cudn't find. but finally decided on sth that erm.. needed some effort haha
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it's almost the end of may already =x means i hv to get started and mug. no choice. i hv to at least pass a few sub this mid yr. if not i tink the sch will come running after my blood. sometimes i jus dun understand why i still fail when i seem to put in so much effort. real sad sia. unlike some ppl who seem to b natural in born ability. *drools* ok so i shall mug. what shud i start first leh??
sometimes it is realli sad it seems like no one cares. i dunno why i keep getting this feeling this yr. maybe it's cos i'm plain lonely in AJ. it's jus that i dun seem to hv someone whom i can tok to wif. everyone's jus pre-occupied wif their own stuff. i suppose i'm too. so maybe this is jus part of life. the older u get. the more independent u must become. sad happy angry wadever. it's all gonna be bottled up in u. or at least majority.
epl ended. i shall not watch the next season until my exams are over. i mean the As.
champion league is over. hai. i already stopped watching it like since i forgot when.
f1 season is still ongoing. i think it might b hard for me to control =x so sad raik has be over taken by ham in the drivers' championship =( raik mus jia you!! i dun care if raik is fat, i'll jus take it as his bones are heavy haha.
tennis i already lost touch so yea.. no worries that i'll b spending too much time on this
nba. seems interesting but i nv seem to be able to catch the game live so also no worries of being addicted.
euro. i ask dad not to subscribe so also no worry
all seems fine =D i can mug the whole june away =D but ohoh i seem to b stuck wif maple again =x
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i dunno what do i want to do with myself... a moment i'm trying hard to study and be a mugger. next moment i'm telling myself "aiya pass jiu hao le since i'm oni going to poly after the A".. then there's the worse one "fail jiu fail lor since i also nv pass b4. so wadever" and the "mid year if i still fail everything i might as well jus quit sch"
can't be helped la... failiing GP essays like no one's business.. failing GP compres as though that's the way it should be ...failiing geog although that NICE lady gives tong qin fen... failing chem test... i dunno what is wrong.. it's not as though i nv put in any effort.. nth seems to go right... how can i not lose hope? some VOICEs keeps telling me confirm wun make it de... hai...
for the sake of not wasting more $$ and money. maybe i shud try to force myself to believe in myself..
soolin! you can do it de! work hard!! maybe i shud jus cry to get all the -ve feelings out but.. when i wanna cry nth comes out! argh~~~ actually not all is bad. sometimes i will smile becos i truly am happy. maybe if i view other tings +ve things might change. i dun wan to be an emo-kia. no!
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the deflator
teachers sometimes inflate ur marks to give u confidence.. as long as the marks aren't inflated b too much i'm fine with it.. i noe it is not good to inflate marks but sometimes that 1 mark might be all that is needed to boost ur confidence..
if a teacher marks strictly marks will confirm fall but in the long run it might help if u dun give up on urself
giving negative comments does not work. reverse psychology doesn't work always. shit u
irony
why wud someone do sth nice but after that say that what he/she has done actually will harm us? aren't u trying to appear like a kind soul here? why the sudden change?
the disgusting
2 couples. both hugging. mrt cabin. opposite. competition??
mugger
to be or not to be? weigh the pros and cons?? for the sake of the exams.. i perhaps shud try but given my style of absorbing info.. i think many pieces of paper will be used cos i'm anything but someone who can learn by reading reading reading
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ytd was sports day.. haha sounds so childish right?? it's called track and field meet la. jus tot calling it sports day wud b more 亲切..
slacked arnd.. didn't bother to sit wif the rest of the people.. sat near the stairs of block 4..
with PO the 4 of us who were slacking arnd. i noe i look weird but that's how i look like whenever i'm the one holding the phone me wif the thingy they gave 33/07~ some of us tug of war which the teachers won AGAIN random photo. staff race after tat went to makan. i was so blur i forgot to pay. and the food is such a waste of my $$ =( then went to amk hub to look for dear shing's present. cudn't find. but finally decided on sth that erm.. needed some effort haha
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