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I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.

dailies

Kickette
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single child.. i realli think chances of her/him is rather high (not that i'm saying all of them are like tat) i mean look.. who will be pretending to cry at the age of 9.. ok sometimes pretend to cry and on other occassions really cry.. and cry over wad? itsy bitsy stuff.. e.g. "mummy really vr pain..." when i dun see wad has happened to cause the pain... or "cough syrup lala (minty)..." or the usual "i wan..." *faints* this really sends chill down my spine.. if u dun give birth the govt is unhappy... if u give birth to 1 there's a possibility of a pamperd child.. if u give birth to 2 and above they'll fight -.-''' why like tat??

something has been bothering me... make me feel uncomfortable.. like.. er.. i oso dunno how to say... i

it's nv too late to be who you were meant to be [some quote i got from a book]

but do you even know who you were meant to be?

you never realise how impt sth is until u lose it..

how far is this statement true?

if true.. why do we oni realise it when it's too late?

why didn't we realise it at that point in time...

now that you realise it.. why is it too late to get it back?

after some vr tiring days. i finally come home cos i really cannot tahan liao. so i come back. pretending that i will study but i actually dun hv intention to study..

i'm vr happy i came back. becos i got to watch liverpool vs chelsea. i must admit i tot they will draw given that they are join top. then when i saw the chelsea line-up i tot "liverpool die!" but i was so so wrong. chelsea had the possession but not the finish. liverpool had like so little possession but somehow they look more dangerous.. =D can't stop smiling =D

i sit here in front of the comp. looking around my thighs and legs. omg. so many scratch marks! omg i scratch in my sleep omg so stressed =x or maybe it's cos my fingernails are LONG. which to me is not long leh..

the exams are here in 11 days. but i see awfully ill-prepared. dunno why is this the case.. trying not to stress out.. trying to absorb everything at first attempt although this shud hv been the N th attempt.. trying to do many things in one day but failing becos i'm simply not motivated or feeling sleepy (in the afternoon) and ultra awake (at night) DIE

ytd.. maybe i was too awake that i went to sleep and had a weird weird dream.

i was going to some place i can't rmb now.. salon or sth.. either that or i was looking for someone.. then the next moment i was on a bendy bus that ignored the red light and zoomed into the interchange at BB.. (???) everyone had to be checked from some forgotten reason.. so i let them check my mobile jus then my other mobile rang.. since when i had 2 i was thinking... then i got scolded for not surrendering my 2nd mobile. so i boarded another bus.. but somehow i end up in some underground mrt station and they were saying that some major disater is going happen and we will be buried under all the weight. so someone suggested to we go to an above-ground mrt station. so everyone started walking on the track towards JE -.- there was also no train on the track somehow.. next moment for all i noe i was underground -,- and we were trying to figure our way out. then next we were asked to change b4 trying to cont finding our way out.. somehow we arrived at a holding area where we were asked to wait for our turn to go make a phonecall (for wad reason ah??) and we had to do the phone call secretly (getting ridiculous).. then i cudn't rmb my parents' numbers and cud oni rmb my aunt's so i called her and she sounded so calm as though there's no impending disater. i looked to my right and there's a classroom where students are still having lesson (err. wad's going on??) then to my right was my aunt's son (since when she has a son?) he was trying to call her but since i was on the phone with her, he can't get thru..

THEN MY ALARM RANG. thank god.. if not i 'll cont wif this weird make no sense dream =X

tis week end has been good for some ham and not so good for other hamS..

in F1.. hammy is almost the world champ.. 7 points diff.. mass has to finish 8 points more than hammy which means winning or finishing 2nd hoping that hammy finish OUT of top 8.. this seems rather impossible sia.. i dun think ham will be so unlucky to not be able to complete the race or unable to finish in top 8.. that's given his current form.. poor ferrari... the form came a little too late... but actually there's still a possiblity of hammy losing. if 1) the other racers do their best to deny hammy of the title.. tat's if the other drivers decide to give up their sportsmenship... 2) hammy is over confident and zoom into the safety barriers =p.. i dun like hammy but it seems like he is gonna be DA ONE tis yr

in soccer.. tottenHAM lost to stoke. omg omg.. 2 points from 8 games.. no wins.. and do u noe how many MILLIONs they spent in the summer to recruit players.. i dunno if i shud say those players are suay to be there or wad. or shud i say that liverpools and man u caused the downfall of this HAM by stealing away their goal scorers berb and keane.. or shud i say they are simply too hao lian at the start and now too demoralised.. i think wat they can possibly do is feed the players more food.. i heard that ramos has some weird dietary plan for everyone.. maybe the players are not used to it or maybe the intake is realli too little. running on empty stomachs are no way to win any game regardless of ur opponent..

this yr those clubs that juz got promoted are vr lucky.. look at the btm of the table.. newcastle stoke and tottenham.. newcastle and tottenham are like established clubs in the league but they are at the wrong end somehow.. newcastle cos of the management n lack of leadership i say.. and look arnd.. the other clubs esp those wif foreign investors. given the crazy financial crisis.. hell knows who else will be affected.. west ham already lost their shirt sponsor.. some club bosses seem keen to sell the club to put their $$ elsewhere.. each club is in debt except hull and look their position in the table.. 3rd!! ahead of man u and arsenal but i think they'll become like man city last season run out of steam.. the 3 newly promoted clubs can't hv debts as huge as the others.. the longer u r in the bpl.. the more u will invest cos u dun wan to lose out to the other clubs u dun wan to lose the huge tv sponsorship $$$.

money is such an evil thing ~

today was the 4th consecutive day i went back to sch when i was supposed to be at home cos its study holiday.. but i feel that i have been more hardworking than b4. wow.. so bu yao lian...

today's train trip was the most interesting cos i wasn't reading newspaper... 1st there was this lady with her gladiator sandles... i think it's those cheapo one.. not that i'm saying i'm very rich or wad. but i find it kinda plastic-ky looking.. and my issue wif her is that she has toe polish that's not well done. i think she painted it like a few weeks ago ba.. now left a bit here and there.. and wad realli attracted many ppl's attention to her was when she went "fuck" when a guy sat down next to her. maybe he bang into her.. but please. she's not vr slim so she is also partly at fault la..

then there's this other weird person.. this guy jus keeps clicking his counter.. on and on.. opened eyes. closed eyes..

grumbles... my hotmail is dmg.. i can't see my mail. i can't delete my mail.. i can't press any bloody button on the entire screen. shit man

maybe the adults had enuff of my whinning.. today i actually went to the zoo~~ at my age at this time wow~~

i realised how bloody long i hvn't been there... it looks so so diff.. i think the last time i went was like erm. at least 4 years ago... the most most memorable thing i can rmb is the chimpanzee!!

there was this family of chimpanzee.. baby mummy and daddy sitting tgt.. aww so sweet i tried to take a pic but cos the baby is quite small relative to the parents i can't see it in the pic.. and cos everything is like black black.. when my aunt tried to take one of the parent carried the baby to the other side.. so we fellowed to the other side.. and again cos the baby 2 small can't see but this time also cos the big one back face us.. so we wait..

then comes another chimp (cheeky chimp) with an "ah-pei" chimp.. come and take pic seeing that so many people hv crowded in front.. cheeky chimp guided ah pei chimp over.. then it was like a family photo.. haha.. b4 tat cheeky was swinging on the vhines trying to show off =).. so now ah pei sits there and poses for us to take pic.. so cute.. cheeky was trying take the food from the container.. so clever sia.. 1st it tries to open the container then he pushes the food to the corner where he can stretch in to reach the food..

the original pair which we were following walked away and finally back to the other parent.. i tot i could take pic finally.. but no.. same prob xD