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I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.


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this asshole

i shall shuddup and speak less since what i say perhaps just doesn't interest anyone.. maybe i'm better off a mute. ha. how nice ah.. becoming more and more anti-social. maybe one day i'll become a pyscho.. jus how long ago was i saying someone else is.. haha.. my desert..

re-taking the As.. i think no one is in a better position than i do.. no matter wad i try to do to make things right. nth seems to be working.. i'm not trying to say anyone else doesn't deserve to say this.. but wad i mean is that.. if u say it.. think whether there's someone arnd u who is trying to avoid that tot even though she noe it is quite possible.. i can't expect a miracle to happen can i?

i'm fucking pessimistic. i noe tat. i tried/trying/ will try to change.. but am i? will i? how successful can it be? how long will the pessimism go away? well the latest record was oni 3 weeks. wah SO LONG worh.. if u r in any way pissed abt my fucking attitude whoever it may be.. sorry.. but i hv to say.. just ignore it la.. since the year is ending.

there's been news abt all the suicide stuff .. there's one view perhaps no one.. as shallow as i read this comment hasn't surfaced yet.. or maybe i hv already gone into that zone tat's why i think this way.. those ppl who end their lives. u may say they are timid they dare not face wif life's challenges.. but isn't ending ur life a big challenge... it takes courage to leave everything and think of a plan of how to end it all (must guarantee death).. there's no such thing as foolproof.. so many failed and end up getting counselling.. which will be seen as redundant for that person for quite some time.. and the effectiveness of the session i suppose don't depend oni on the victim but also the counsellor to a great ext..