hello, colours

welcome

I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.

dailies

Kickette
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Duchess Lane

i dunno what do i want to do with myself... a moment i'm trying hard to study and be a mugger. next moment i'm telling myself "aiya pass jiu hao le since i'm oni going to poly after the A".. then there's the worse one "fail jiu fail lor since i also nv pass b4. so wadever" and the "mid year if i still fail everything i might as well jus quit sch"

can't be helped la... failiing GP essays like no one's business.. failing GP compres as though that's the way it should be ...failiing geog although that NICE lady gives tong qin fen... failing chem test... i dunno what is wrong.. it's not as though i nv put in any effort.. nth seems to go right... how can i not lose hope? some VOICEs keeps telling me confirm wun make it de... hai...

for the sake of not wasting more $$ and money. maybe i shud try to force myself to believe in myself..

soolin! you can do it de! work hard!!

maybe i shud jus cry to get all the -ve feelings out but.. when i wanna cry nth comes out! argh~~~

actually not all is bad. sometimes i will smile becos i truly am happy. maybe if i view other tings +ve things might change.

i dun wan to be an emo-kia. no!