hello, colours

welcome

I must learn to love the fool in me
the one who feels too much
talks too much
takes too many chances
wins sometimes and loses often
lacks self-control
loves and hates
hurts and gets hurt
promises and breaks promises
laughs and cries.

dailies

Kickette
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Duchess Lane

it's going to be a vr long entry i suppose.. hv loads of tings in my mind..

today's the first sch holiday weekday. realised that i hv so so much to do with so so little time. tons of work + revision. wow how nice..

went to buy tix for a night show at 1 -.- right. but i kiasu ma. scared no tix by night time =x i dun care how 丑 i look how ppl tink of me. i juz chiong chiong chiong. bought 3 then HL suddenly say she wan. too bad i'm already at hm. so XY hv to go buy..

on the way there in the evening, on the mrt platform. i practically stared at someone and he stared back. i can't help it la. first look i din bother. 2nd look found him familiar. 3rd look- can't be HIM la but y look so alike. so i kept looking. conclusion. can't be him cos his hair is like WRONG although specs is correct

the movie was funny, juz dun go n care the plot so much la. juz LAUGH. the chair was like a rocking chair. haha. so springy. still prefer cathay de. at least the loo is nt within the cinema. the light so bright.

after that saw 2 peeps that i nv tot i wed see but is vr possible to see there juz tat i realli nv think of it la.. but duh.. all i tink of is HIM.. all i wish to see is HIM.. dumb dumb right??

at GB station saw tis ntu dragon boat team guy. WAH so 壮! 帅 man

2 peeps asked me if my msn dp was my BF!! wakaka. as if la.. it's cristiano ronaldo. the pic of him SUPER 帅 la. i mean it lor. i tink most ppl will agree.

it's been an entire term. i din see HIM a single time. NOT even once. seems dumb for me to miss someone so badly. ok.. maybe not BADLY. it's like on off on off ting. although every yr this time i dun spend time wif him at all. i dunno why i miss him sooo. so many tings i see i hear. places where i go. i tink of HIM. 七里香. suntec. daniel bedingfield. it's all gone. it wun come back. no hope at all. but this is happening. my heart is aching. when i see that darn movie / char i tink of wad HE did. blood boils. so i hate that movie/ char. dumb dumb. although i tink of HIM i dun dream of HIM. it has been quite a while since HE appeared in my dreams. maybe i nv tink as much as i tot =p

i wonder. how tall is he. wad subject combi he took. wad class is he in. wad m i to him. how wud we react if we see each other. will there b a day when we will speak to each other, even if it's juz a hi/excuse me. how wud tings be lyk if i hv stayed on. does he know i've changed my number for a yr alrdy. has he changed his number. is he still single. does he tink of me too. all these stupid questions that are childish foolish and totally dumb. i shud grow up. i shud move on. let go of the past. stop tinking of it. i shudn't 留在原点. this is not the end of my life. it doesn't end like tat. it shudn't. i still hv a long way. i'll meet more ppl.

it's the 3 yr i hv been like tat. well. first yr sucked the most. last yr wasn't tat bad. i was tinking MORE of my chi paper. will there be a 4th yr?